Nicole Kidman Opens Up On Grief & Aging For Allure

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Nobody in Hollywood had a busier 2024 than Nicole Kidman—and the star is taking a breather to open up on her whirlwind career with Allure!

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As the face of the magazine’s May issue, the award-winning actress fronts a futuristic cover shoot by Dan Beleiu where she dons shimmering pieces by Balenciaga, Roberto Cavalli, and Christian Louboutin. She also chats with editor Danielle Pergament during a dual hyperbaric chamber session on her packed 2024 and projects for 2025—including new roles in Holland and Nine Perfect Strangers season 2—as well as her relationships with wellness, aging, parenting, and being viewed as an “intimidating” figure. On a particularly emotional note, Kidman also opens up on dealing with grief, particularly following the passing of her mother, making the profile an especially intimate one for the beauty publication.

“Losing my mother changed every part of me,” Kidman says. “I spoke to her every second or third day. And because she was on the other side of the world, if I woke up at 5:00 a.m., I’d get up, I’d walk around the block and I’d talk to her for an hour before the girls got up, before Keith got up. That was the rhythm of my day. I’m so raw with it. I feel embarrassed because I feel like, Oh, you’ve talked about it enough. So I have to keep saying to myself, It’s okay. Maybe it’s my sense of what I feel I should be doing. I’m trying to be quiet and have it be a more intimate thing with just my friends or my sister. The love was so profound that the loss of it…I’m on the journey of grief, the year of magical thinking.”

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All images: Dan Beleiu 

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